Thursday, June 07, 2007
Where I am, My perspective
About 2 1/2 weeks ago I hurt my knee. I went on a rafting trip and tripped when I got out of the raft at the end of the trip, hitting my knee on a large rock. (I was fine during the 4 hour rafting trip!) I couldn't walk on it and it was very embarrassing. When I had the x-ray done at the emergency room, they found a spot on one of my bones that had nothing to do with my knee. It is very small, and probably nothing, but it made me really step back and take a look at life. So did the knee injury. I was thinking that maybe I shouldn't do all these fun things that I want to do, because I could get hurt. But then I asked myself, "is it worth the risk?" And the answer for me is "yes". I want to do all those things. Everything that I keep holding myself back from. I want to hike and climb and do all of those things and it is worth the risk of getting hurt, because I want to do it and I will enjoy it and it will challenge me. I am tired of just floating through life. I want to live it! I am trying to get into better shape, so that I can do all the things I want to do. I am walking (not long distance for now, I irritated my knee walking yesterday and it swelled-up again), I am doing a little bit of work with weights, and I am continuing in my physical therapy. It is really helping me. I feel so free. I am being true to myself and honest with myself and it is so freeing.